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so, i have been a pretty regular snorter of heroin for about a year and a half/ two years. usually i do it alone, at night, in my room, or occasionally, hang out with my housemate who has no idea. lately, though, i have started mixing it with coke, feeling like it kept me up and at a perfect equilibrium to be out in public more than i have done in the past.

so i was hanging out with someone who picked up on how fidgety and itchy i was. . . . which i was barely aware of. . . and he told some of my closest people that he thought i was using heroin, and now i am faced with a bunch of people who know....

it sucks. i am so embarrassed. and so tempted to go nuts one more time before i am forced into rehab.... i am heading down to jazz fest on wednesday and will have everything i need to debauch myself. . . . .feels weird though, knowing my people know i have a problem, i know i have a problem.

so, 2 questions. . . . how much blow + smack leads to an overdose? i don't want to die down there. and does anyone know of a dog friendly rehab joint?? thanks . . .

[WitchTownbum]

it really changes your relationships with people. People start watching their purses more thinking you are going to rob em and sometimes certain friends start to fade away. If you're only snorting it though how much are you snorting? There isn't a specific amount that causes you to overdose because everyones tolerance is different and it's a lot harder when you are snorting it to overdose anyway. I have overdosed 3 times and twice I was on klonopins which is never a good mix. I think I had done a half a gram both times when I was on like 2 mgs of perscribed klonopin. Plus I was shooting it and I believe my brown was cut with benzos anyway. I have a suggestion for you though. Instead of goin to rehab locate a docter to prescribe you suboxin. It makes dope sickness a lot more bearable and usually they prescribe you a sleeping aid as well. Suboxone takes the edge off too and makes it so that you don't feel like killing your self as much. The only junkies I know who went to rehab were doing several grams a day and couldn't find any working veins anymore.I was almost to that point as well but was in the process of getting a job and interviews and such which have made checking in to a place that much more difficult. If you think your problem is so severe that you otherwise have no alternatives or if it's difficult to get a docter to prescribe you suboxone on your insurance see if there are any CAB health&Recovery facilities in your area. They might even allow you to check in your doggy...but don't quote me on that. Hope everything goes well!

[Bamf08]

I was the same way, no one knew what i was doing i hide it very well. Not because i liked being sneaky but because i was ashamed, very ashamed. Still to his day none of my friends know really. I finally had to tell my family though because i couldn't do it on my own. Any ways you will find out who really loves and cares about you now that the secrets out. Good luck.