amber3573
06-13-2008, 04:43 PM
Someone please point me in SOME direction. I am 8 months pregnant. At 4 months, I gave the ultimatum of 'choose coke or your baby'. I had to leave the state and go home to my family because of the behavior. Everything was MY fault. I felt like jumping off a building because I couldn't take the ridiculing, and degradation from him. He is also a dealer, by the way. He works security in a bar on the weekend, and pays the bills primarily by dealing. He is almost 38 years old, and I am 35. At 7 months pregnant I moved back to the state because I thought things had changed. I am having a very hard time right now. He is still using, and nothing has changed. He stays up all night, and sleeps all day long. almost EVERY day. He tells me it is because of insomnia, but has no problem napping at all. I think he has been steadily using for at least 10 years. This is a first child for both of us. He keeps telling me things will change when the baby is born, but I just don't know what to do. I've even threatened him with the police, and turning him in. Last week befor our Dr. visit, we got into a heated argument with the usual 'I'm taking the baby', and ' I'll see you in court' and I went in and my blood pressure had skyrocketed. I don't know how to make myself calm. Where do I go? What do I do? I have no job because no one will hire me at this point, and my car broke down 2 days ago. I'm scared and confused. Someone please help..... my email is amberige@hotmail.com
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