I've Seen Better Days....
06-18-2008, 03:49 PM
I've been smoking marijuana now for several years, ever since I was a sophmore in High School, and I just can't do it anymore. I always thought that I was unique, that somehow, my story could be different. It's not.
If I drew a bar graph of my productivity and GPA, it would decline as my marijuana use went up in the past 3 years, and finally it has cost me my scholarship, and to some degree, the life I once had.
I had a great girlfriend, a great family, and great friends, and almost all of them have felt the pain of my marijuana addiction. Call me stupid if you want, all you other stoners out there, but when you start smoking all the time and forgetting things and generally just "veg out" your family DOES take note to it, as do your friends. Smoking weed not only effected my life, but it took a toll on everyone else's around me, because the reliable, dependable person they had known there whole life was rapidly changing and my only fear now is that that person is gone forever.
the worst part of all, is that i may have lost my girlfriend of several years because of my own willpower.
I feel like im 20years old going on 35 because of my mentality and progress in life.
but regardless of all that i have lost, im glad i finally found a purpose, or at least a goal. the one thing i seem to have lost as a stoner was any overall sense of direction...and for some people it just takes dropping to the point where the only feasible direction of "the fuck away from where i am now" and thats the point im at.
thankfully, there is a light at the end of the tunnel....life goes on, and i have the rest of my life to be sober :D
i haven't smoked in...well...half a day now haha, but im sure everyone here know how that goes :rolleyes:
but tomorrow is a new day, and im gonna give it my all
If I drew a bar graph of my productivity and GPA, it would decline as my marijuana use went up in the past 3 years, and finally it has cost me my scholarship, and to some degree, the life I once had.
I had a great girlfriend, a great family, and great friends, and almost all of them have felt the pain of my marijuana addiction. Call me stupid if you want, all you other stoners out there, but when you start smoking all the time and forgetting things and generally just "veg out" your family DOES take note to it, as do your friends. Smoking weed not only effected my life, but it took a toll on everyone else's around me, because the reliable, dependable person they had known there whole life was rapidly changing and my only fear now is that that person is gone forever.
the worst part of all, is that i may have lost my girlfriend of several years because of my own willpower.
I feel like im 20years old going on 35 because of my mentality and progress in life.
but regardless of all that i have lost, im glad i finally found a purpose, or at least a goal. the one thing i seem to have lost as a stoner was any overall sense of direction...and for some people it just takes dropping to the point where the only feasible direction of "the fuck away from where i am now" and thats the point im at.
thankfully, there is a light at the end of the tunnel....life goes on, and i have the rest of my life to be sober :D
i haven't smoked in...well...half a day now haha, but im sure everyone here know how that goes :rolleyes:
but tomorrow is a new day, and im gonna give it my all