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[YoungDrummer]

Wow, this is a sudden turn around. I will first start by giving some background, and also apologizing for this wall of text! :D . My name is Chris, I live in TN, I am 14 years old, and I can totally admit the fact that I am both physically and mentally dependent on weed and its bittersweet effects. I will start by saying it is a little bit weird that I have all of a sudden decided it is time to make a change, but I definitely do not feel bad about it. I smoked my first bowl with my then 17 year old brother and lifetime best friend (also 17) about half way through my year of 13, you might say. Since the first hit I LOVED the stuff. The soft, giggly euphoria, the sweet confusion, and the state of "relaxation" even if your mind isn't doing the same. I have a very addictive personality and I have really gotten deep into whatever it may be throughout life hobby wise, and it is both an advantage and a risk to me as a human. Any who, like many of us, it was that first time that tipped us off. After that I smoked with my brother as much as I possibly could. I loved it! It got to the point where at 13 years old I was smoking every day, including school nights, and sometimes before school. And I know some of you are totally shocked, but this is the truth. I realize how pathetically awful it is, but the truth is the truth. I guess what allowed weed to come into my life so strongly wasn't peer pressure; rather the culture of the whole thing. I mean hell, I love pot, if I hear "Hey hey hey hey, smoke weed everyday" in one of Dr. Dre's songs, I'm like hell yes. It has become so normal to me. As I continued to smoke, I grasped the effects and technique of smoking. I discovered over time that I have beastly lungs and I can rip the hell out of any piece. I was a pro-toker at age 13, but not too proud of it. My mom started drug testing me randomly and I was busted for pot.. but it was always weird and didn't have too much of an effect on me because SHE took me and my bro's weed and toked it herself!!! Proof? She took a bag from my brother and piece (unpacked.) I found her hiding spot while snooping around in her room (yes, I'm a little bastard) and it was chock full of bags, rolling papers, lighters, pieces, and blueberry bob! My brother's piece, with a bowl packed AND hit of his sour diesel. I couldn't help but laugh my ass off at the whole thing. I snapped a pic and texted it to my brother. We both then considered it as the "a-bomb," only to be dropped in the most heated of arguments. I quit for a good month when my brother got his MIP and had to quit due to court testing. I waned back onto smoking through the beginning of my ninth grade year and of course, sooner or later I was back into it. It was different the second time, almost as if it was just more natural. I wouldn't sit there and think about bud all day at school, it was just do work, come home, smoke a bowl, and ride my bike listening to some tunes. Smoke a bowl after homework maybe if I had a big sack and then hit the hay. Not too progressive eh? Anyway, I seem to be babbling about my story. I'm Chris, and I am here for help as to how to wane off this shit. I wanna be done, I think. I will probably fail due to lack of willpower at the beginning, but I can do this, dammit. Please share with me your experiences, stories, and general words of wisdom if you can. Give it to me straight. I know I'm going to be bombed with tons of hate and blabber about rehab centers and physicians, but this is me. This is my thing. I started it, I'll end it.
Thanks for your time.

-Chris

[dtitlebaum]

the way you write it seems like this all you've ever done in your whole life!

put it this way dude - and this is coming from a fellow drummer - if you want out, get out now

it doesn't get any easier because the brain makes decisions based on what you did in the past

and i'm not even advocating complete abstinence, but development of patterns at your age is especially crucial in life, so if you can simply 'replace' the psyudo-addiction with another activity, you will at least be creating different patterns even if you don't lick your underlying problems

[AKN]

I don't have much time now, but I can say I know where you're coming from. I was doing about the same at your age. By the end of 8th grade I was smoking before school, at lunch, sometimes inbetween classes and then the heavy sessions would start after school. And well, if youve read my posts you know that you sure as hell don't want to end up with my smoking habits. While I'm no master of willpower, I'm not a total retard either. Anyway, it sounds to me like you have got some reason to be concerned. I think those of us that LOVED it straight away are at most at risk to have problems with it. I can imagine it's a hard situation, not sure what else I would've done in high school besides get stoned. If you're into drumming, maybe throwing yourself in that might be a good option. It can seem otherwise, but pretty much no one is better at anything when they're stoned, it just reduces one's standards. I'm a writer, and I can't tell you how many times I've looked at stuff sober that I thought was brilliant when I was stoned, and just been disappointed. I feel all profound, but the fact is I can write something twice as good in half the time if I'm not stoned.

I'm no expert on this quitting thing, still struggling with it myself. But I do know for sure that trying and failing is way better than giving up. I do my best at staying off it when I can stay busy doing things I like. It's those times when I'm bored i'm most vulnerable, but that's mainly laziness, being high makes most things at least slightly more interesting.

I'll be the last person to recommend all that 'formal' type stuff. Haven't seen that too much of that in here at all actually. The only old person, finger wagging thing I'll say is that at your age your brain is still developing, so its poor timing for being a pot head. Weed will always be out there if you want it, don't be in a hurry to smoke it all now. hehe :)

Take care! Remember.... bowls are for eating and flushing. :P

[CRH]

Just read your post and i am honestly impressed that you have made this decision at your age. Kind of surprised you have to make the decision at your age but still impressed that you have made it. I myself am now 30 and only started smoking pot when i was 18. It quickly became an every day thing especially when i was in college, I want lie. I had alot of great times with friends and stuff but I do think i missed out on many things because i was high and very content with staying in and just smoking more pot, I am now at the point where starting a family and keeping my job are very important to me and I myself am at the point i have to stop or risk losing everything i have worked for, which kind of pisses me off because i dont think pot is bad (no worse than alcohol or tobacco). However, the government says its illegal and therefore not wise to use. As crappy as it is, it is the way the world works. The reason i am impressed with your decision is that it seems to have only taken you a couple of years to realize what it has taken me 10 years to figure out. Good luck and stay strong with your convictions. Remember, it's your life and it's your choices.

[jenny]

Remember where there is a will there is a way.

[dtitlebaum]

Hey Jenny, do you have anything other than these cliched one line responses for every post that comes up?

these things are like thread killers, they're nothing but recycled garbage that we've all heard before and didn't come here to read.

[jenny]

Hey Jenny, do you have anything other than these cliched one line responses for every post that comes up?

these things are like thread killers, they're nothing but recycled garbage that we've all heard before and didn't come here to read.

COOL LOL!!!

You may think it a garbage but it is very important for me. Sorry if I've annoyed you.

[MT1985]

I started around the same age and never thought I could get so out of control with it. I know exactly what you are going through I have been smoking for 12 years and I have tried quitting before. The longest I went without pot was about half a year and I was always so mad at everything. We arent saying marijuana is a terrible drug thats going to kill you... you know. It's just that using it comes with some responsability and if it gets to the point where you wake up every morning and all you care about is getting blazed you know you have a problem. I have been there plenty of times myself and I love weed too man. Start by cutting back instead of smoking like 2 grams a day slow down to a joint a day. That is how I quit though I can never seem to stay away from this beautiful sweet sweet leaf. You are still young and you can quit while you are ahead don't become an addict and rely on it thats all. If you can get by without relying on it I think youl be alright just don't let it consume your life.

[dawicker104]

If you think you will be able to stop on your own you're kidding yourself. That's the addiction talking. Addiction is very sneaky and alluring, which is why stopping is so difficult. I recommend you read the cycle of addiction on my site and then you'll see that EVERYONE thinks they can solve it on their own and VERY few actually do.

Read: www.drug-addiction-support.org/Drug-Addiction-Recovery.html (http://www.drug-addiction-support.org/Drug-Addiction-Recovery.html)