cshreve
07-24-2008, 05:00 AM
i was diagnosed with hereditary gall bladder disease in jan. of this year. since then i have been on various kinds of pain medications including, vicodin, norco, darvocet, and finally ultram/tramadol. my downfall has been the ultram. since (i'd guess) march i have been taking three 50mg ultram at one time, working up to five a day. the very first time i ran out i easily got more and have continued to take it until the end of last month when i decided i didn't want to take it any longer. within two days i had serious unbearable withdrawals. i called my doctor and got another perscription, once again when stopping i had horrible withdrawals, i couldn't eat and dropped down to 104 pounds from 126. this time i went in and discussed it with my doctor and we agreed to taper me off the medication, my first attempt at tapering was uncessfull, i am the first to admit that the feeling of being on the amount i was used to was better than taking those steps for my health. she perscribed it to me one last time and i failed again now. i can't get a percription for it from my doctor any longer and i can't fill any more perscriptions because of how quickly i have been going through 90 tablets. i'm on my first day cold turkey now and the worst part (so far) has been the severe lack of energy. i have a 1 and a half year old son and not being able to keep up with him during the day is absoultely killing me. i also have anxiety and at night restless legs where i get no sleep whatsoever. my doctor also perscribed me xanax but im afraid if i take that for ANY relief i'll only whind up in the same position with a different medication. any advice? what should i do? i kept this from my family for the longest time and my husband, while very supportive, doesn't understand and thinks i can just deal. i wish i could. i heard l-tyrosine gives a good energy boost but i've experienced nothing from it. it's depressing me and i have no idea what to do.