Not Strong Enough

[hopeless44]

I have no idea what to do. I have been addicted to hydro and oxy for 4 years now...and I'm only 19. No one, except my best friend and longtime co-addict, knows about my problem. I'm afraid my family would hate me...we already have one pill addict in the family and I know what they think of her. To most addicts it would probably seem like I barely have a problem, I only take 3 500mg hydrocodone a day and a 40mg oxycodone lasts me about 2.5 days. But nonetheless, the withdrawal symptoms suck! I have a good family life, a good job and I am a successful college student but I feel like I can't do anything without pills. I need to get back in control of my life, but I'm too ashamed to tell my family and I'm afraid they will find out if I try to get professional help (I live in a small town). Now my best friend who got me started on pills has successfully quit. I don't think I'm as strong as her though, and now I really feel screwed. Mostly, my feelings are "I got myself in to this, I have to get myself out"...but I'm hopeless.

[lambchop]

You CAN do it...if you want to. Don't wait as I did...I ended up in a coma near death. My doctors couldn't even figure out how I am alive and well now. I wanted to get well because the withdrawal was a total hellish nightmare and I knew I would die from this. Your body can take just so much of these drugs and then the body quits. You have to tell someone...is your family usually supportive? If yes, tell them you made a big mistake and want to get well. You need a great deal of support and PROFESSIONAL help. DON'T do it alone...please!