Scared and ashamed....need to "talk".....

[AlphaDivxMovies]

*nothing to see here move along*

[VegasClinicWorker]

Even if you aren't able to seek treatment, you could join a support group to find kindred spirits. You would learn a lot from others who have the same problem and you could talk about your problem with people who would understand.

I'd urge you, though, to consider private, outpatient treatment to rid yourself of your addiction. Consider Suboxone. It can help you step down from your addiction and relieve the misery of withdrawal. A medical doctor can help you locate a physician who offers the treatment and who can also treat your depression. Please think it over. Good luck to you.

[sunsetstrip]

Alpha, I have no experience personally of Heroin addiction, but I know many people who do. I'm not gonna sit here and tell you the same shit 'mind over matter', or 'get your head straight'. Because God, through watching some of my best friends wrestle with the drug, I understand how it completely controls the mind, sad, but very fucking true. But I did want to say that I'm here if you ever feel lonely, or if you want someone to talk to. SOmetimes that can make all the difference...? I honestly wish you all the best luck in the world, dude.

[britjojo]

Again I've not been there but I had a boyfriend who was frequently where you are now. I saw how it controlled him so totally, so the control that you have regain is amazing.

All I can offer is my sympathy for what you are going through and my hope and encouragement that you can get through this and get clean.

[shinningstar]

Thank's to you Alpha for sharing your heroin experience. I learned many lessons from you. I know your not the only one suffering in this world.There are many drug users outside who suffered more than that but they abled to recover. Cheer up! I know you can fight it!

[mtajim]

I think it sreally hard to tell your story and since Alpha has said his problems , i think he can now fight with his problems . The thing any drug user should have to combat his addiction is self confidence . If you have that then you can surely stand against it

[deweast]

Hi i Hi , i am new to this forum, i have been a regular controlled heroin user for the past 3 years, 3 years i just threw away....and now i`ve spent the last couple of months trying to get off heroin for ever. Ido not need to tell nyone here how hard it is....i can take a lot of physical pain but i am a very lonely person, i was very reserved and quiet before i even met her but now i am even more alone. I cut off with all my drug buddies and the only true friend i had is in a clinic for the next months. I just need to talk to someone, i lived a life of lies and make believe for the past 3 years and now i cannot be alone for more than 2 hours that i get really anxious and depressed heroin is my only friend....i might be off it for 5 days but then i cannot stand it anymore and i go at it for 3 days and stop for another 5 days....this is my present life....:-(
I cannot seek professioonal help for my heroin problem, i have a though job and i work in shifts....when i do nights i use heroin to avoid abdominal pain and anxiety and it works but i cannot keep doing this i need to stop and make my parents proud of me, i need to stop lying and doing this shit, i need a normal life away from heroin, it helped but i need to let it go......thanks for "listening". Any comentaries or tips are wellcome.
Hi Alpha, only stumbled on your message whilst doing some research as i will soon be a qualified drug worker,i could`t help but be moved by your plight..... you cant do it on your own mate,you need to go to an open access and get help,its confidential and they are open till 9 at night and they are really nice people. Its hard to admit you have a drug problem and drug workers realise that and are very accomadating,and most of all they are trained to put your wishes first. Hope you are ok and found this useful

[mtajim]

I think its not easy to control addiction on your own but if you have self confidence then you can surely fight with it but still you will require some hel from others

[tristag04]

I read your entry, Hi my name is Trista and I am a 26 year old female who has used heroin for about six years now. I have undergone detox several times but there is something about this drug that drives us back it feels as if im loosing air to breathe with each passing day that i stay clean. I know your pain trust me, I have am more than shamed and scared. Let me tell you something that I have learned on this downward spiral. If there is anyway you can get help for this horrible affliction you MUST do it. NO JOB, NO PERSON, NO LOVE, NO INCOME in the world is worth your life. THis drug Will kill you. Please believe me I almost lost my little sister to this. One night we went to the spot and after pulled off to get what we call."well". I must have given her to much because her eyes closed and they didnt open untill the doctor in the e.r straped her to the table and injected her with the antidote. She would have died if the hospital where one or two minutes further and I would have taken that to my grave. She did finolly get clean but with no help from me. IF there is someone out there that loves you enough to help you take it if not for yourself for them. My family has tryed but gave up on me long ago and now I am stuck wanting so badly to rid myself of this demon. But you and I both know what dope sick is, nothing can even describe it. I may never find peace from this but Please if you can if its possible one less victim one less waisted dollar, minute, day,month, heart, life.. I pray you take a good hard look in the mirror and ask yourself what is important you and the lives or the poeple that care or herion?

[addictionstyle]

Heroin is never a best friend of anyone in this world. if you think so then I think you can never get rid of it. If you do not want to be alone then the best option is to go to some chatting site and have talk with people there. This will help you.

[buttonfluff]

being off heroin and stable on meth for 3 yrs ,i was a user for 6 yrs i had to leave all my so called mates .i am lonley and bored but im happy that im free and i look forward to the day i meet new friends,for now my sanity my slippers and my tv will do ,,,be strong,everything will fall into place and its worth it,

[HhasMeHooked]

wow im new to this forum also but i know exactly how you all feel i am 27 and have been on/off/on heroin for 8 years currently i am on subxone and this helped SO! much for about 6 months until recently i stopped taking it on the weekend to use heroin. I know the dangerous game I'm playing because i know i can not be trusted to control my use, i feel like no matter how long i am clean i will never get loose of the hold that this drug has on me.

[exjunky]

i was very reserved and quiet before i even met her but now i am even more alone.
Wait a minute, did I miss something there. Is "her" your girlfriend or are you referring to heroin as a "she"?

I always thought of heroin as a "boy", that's even the slang for it on the streets. But I digress.

Whatever you call "her", Lady Heroin is not your friend, she'll kill your friends and then come for you. You can tell her you love her 100 times a day and in return she'll take away everything you own and finally leave your body cold and blue.

My story in a nutshell: I kicked over a month ago from a 10-month relapse and I'm doing fairly well. Some days are better than others. I'm taking suboxone. My goal is to stop using opiates for the rest of my life but my short-term goal is to get off suboxone. It's proven to be a little bit more uncomfortable than I hoped, but I think I can manage.

Best wishes, let's chat here anytime.

[sbell1]

yoy have to let someone else take control i couldnt bet the war against herion without rehab. maybe your stronger then me and you can do it. i understand the job thing i know how scarey the world can seem you need to get into treatment. herion is strong it has way with not letting the addict go you can ALWAYS find another job you only get one life one once that over thats it so you need to think about want you really want you need help from people who know what they are doing good luck and please think about what i am saying i will pray for you:)

[LW75]

As you said, quitting is awfully hard. It isn't just getting away from the drug, itself. Its also about getting past the phase of loneliness that many drug users go through, partially because they no longer have their drug buddies. New friends take a while to make, and sometimes the newly recovered drug addict doesn't have much in common with non-drug friends.

You mentioned wanting to make your mother proud. You should more be wanting to make yourself proud.

As for your mother, I can tell you this. I'm a mother, and I don't need to be proud of my sons or daughter. What I need, though, is to know that they aren't ruining the healthy bodies they were lucky enough to have been born with and that they aren't risking their lives by doing drugs.

Your mother probably looks at you and sees the little child you once were and wonders how this has happened to that little child. Your mother probably wants just one thing, and that is to stop having to worry that she'll get a call that her daughter has died of an overdose or a heart attack or whatever other drug-related death there may be.

Your mother wants you to be the you she always knew. Most importantly, she wants you to be strong, strong, strong right now because if you can't be super strong you'll run the risk of slipping up and losing any progress you've made so far.

Your mother probably wishes you would love the person you are as much as she loves the person that you are. Be strong.:o

[stillscared]

Hi , i am new to this forum, i have been a regular controlled heroin user for the past 3 years, 3 years i just threw away....and now i`ve spent the last couple of months trying to get off heroin for ever. Ido not need to tell nyone here how hard it is....i can take a lot of physical pain but i am a very lonely person, i was very reserved and quiet before i even met her but now i am even more alone. I cut off with all my drug buddies and the only true friend i had is in a clinic for the next months. I just need to talk to someone, i lived a life of lies and make believe for the past 3 years and now i cannot be alone for more than 2 hours that i get really anxious and depressed heroin is my only friend....i might be off it for 5 days but then i cannot stand it anymore and i go at it for 3 days and stop for another 5 days....this is my present life....:-(
I cannot seek professioonal help for my heroin problem, i have a though job and i work in shifts....when i do nights i use heroin to avoid abdominal pain and anxiety and it works but i cannot keep doing this i need to stop and make my parents proud of me, i need to stop lying and doing this shit, i need a normal life away from heroin, it helped but i need to let it go......thanks for "listening". Any comentaries or tips are wellcome.

I've been on suboxone for 90 days and I feel incredible it's a miracle drug for opiate addicts. Talk to your doctor or look it up online to find out more but from my personal experience it's the best thing that's ever happened to me

[exjunky]

I've been on suboxone for 90 days and I feel incredible it's a miracle drug for opiate addicts.
Agreed 100%

If you try it, remember this: the first pill you take will not help you, or maybe make you feel worse. Don't worry about that. Keep taking it liberally and within 6 to 24 hours you'll feel better. From there on it's all a cakewalk.