lonely

[sbell1]

what can i say i have been clean 4 about 2 years however things r real shaking 4 me right now i find myself getting more and more depressed daily i really cant deal with all the emtions that are going on in my lfe and i have relased once allready its just a matter of time before i get high again its like im living for everyone else:eek: :confused:

[moja]

We all go through peaks and valleys in the journey of life. I really admire your willingness to put your feelings out there and ask for help. It takes a big person to know they can't do this alone. I feel your pain. My fiancee has been in prison the whole time that I have been clean - 18+ months. And it really does get lonely. What my Higher Power is teaching me, and allowing me the time to learn, is that I am never alone. My Higher Power - that birthright of strength and power and spirit within me - is always with me. And I am learning to enjoy the company I am in when I am by myself. If you have not been going to meetings - go! And share what you so generously shared in your post with the people at the meeting. Don't give up. Work steps with a sponsor. Find your Higher Power. The negative emotions are like the gas guage on a car - they just indicate how full your tank is. If it is low (eg, negative emotions), then you just need to fill up with your Higher Power - the force that fuels recovery. Please keep us updated on how things are going. I will pray for you.

[sbell1]

things are just like you said i do need to get to meetings i spend 9 months in rehab and i have been home now for about 9 months i got a job and went to school. I do everything I can to run from that part of me. Im not ashamed of what happen and i hold my head high. however, i cant belive what as happen, who i am what i did i dont know anymore since comming home from rehab im lonely i dont relate to the real world. Thats what makes me realize that i need help i cant do this alone thank you for you very kind words that i really needed to hear and thank you for your prays:)

[LW75]

Can you talk to any counselors you worked with before? Its important that you have some kind of support.

Loneliness can sometimes happen when people stay away from their previous using friends but have trouble making new friends (because non-users are reluctant to get involved with someone with a "history"). Its a transition time.

Try to find things that will help get your mind off your loneliness for now. Loneliness only really bothers people when they think about it. If someone is laughing at a funny tv show, having coffee with a friend, or listening to upbeat music it can get his mind of loneliness.

Life isn't perfect, and we have times in our life when we're not all that happy and fulfilled. Non-substance-abusers find ways of coping and improving their situation. Don't look for the loneliness as an excuse to weaken your resolve. There's always some negative thing in our lives that any of us could use as an excuse to get high.

Best wishes. Whatever you do, stay strong. You've come this far.

[jr_sci]

Don't worry, it happens to most of us. We must try to deal with every situation effectively. Lets make something new out of our life. Go out. You will surely feel relaxed.

[left]

I think it's a hard work to do it. In fact, I have seen that in a book if you try to change your bad habit abruptly, it will be bad to your health. So try it step by step, and then you can catch it.