Mahdiya
11-18-2007, 06:13 PM
It seems my life consists of cycles with periods of great energy and plans, interspaced by periods of desillusion, when I am totally worn out, seeking comfort (from God).
When I have energy, I will set my goals very high, and I want to sacrifice anything to reach it. Appearantly, sacrificing anything is not the road to succes, because this totally wears me out.
When I'm worn out I actually want people to pity me, like I also used to have pity on other people who are less fortunate than me. But that usually doesn't happen. So the only person that is there to comfort me, is God.
Then I get this period where I become very withdrawn and religious, until I've 'charged my battery' again. Does anybody experience the same?
Because I think it's also related to my codependency. The part where I sacrifice too much and wear myself out, I mean.
When I have energy, I will set my goals very high, and I want to sacrifice anything to reach it. Appearantly, sacrificing anything is not the road to succes, because this totally wears me out.
When I'm worn out I actually want people to pity me, like I also used to have pity on other people who are less fortunate than me. But that usually doesn't happen. So the only person that is there to comfort me, is God.
Then I get this period where I become very withdrawn and religious, until I've 'charged my battery' again. Does anybody experience the same?
Because I think it's also related to my codependency. The part where I sacrifice too much and wear myself out, I mean.