Quitters Journal

[quitter]

Hello Folks,

Many years ago when I first started to considered quitting weed, I thought that writing a journal or blog was lame. But now 8 years later I think it will be a great asset to my recovery. Well my story is not that differnt than many Marijuana Addicts out there.

Started during high school, my parents were working alot so I was free to do what ever I wanted once school was out. I can pinpoint the moment I wanted to try weed. Menance II Socitey had just come out on VHS and it looked so cool and harmless. An older friend of our click brough us some weed. We tried it but first time didn't do a thing. It wasn't until the 4-5 time when I began to really feel it. To make a long story shorter, I ended up smoking everyday after school with my friends. It was such a cool thing to do and I really like it too. It became much easier to make friends with weed, it felt so good and I actually felt very proud that I could handle my weed so well.

its now about 12 years later, and I told myself I would quit in the year 2000. 8 years of living with 2 parts of myself. One wants to quit, the other says one last joint. Well it's the end of 2007, it's new years eve and i'm staying home alone to be sober. Hopefully I will have the inspiration to blog everyday, any coments you write are much appreciated and wanted.

[quitter]

Things are going well today, ran 1 hour on the stair master and starting to feel like i'm getting back into the shape. The past week has been full of weed and junk food.

I'm starting to see a realistic future of what life without weed will be like. One question that keeps running through my mind is what to do with my friends? Over the years I have systematically lost of my non weed smoking friends and have surrounded myself with virtually only weed smokers. Well if we are really friends beyond the bond we have with weed I guess we will continue our friendship. I can imagine hanging out with them while they smoke up, but it would be pretty boring for me, so I don't think I'll waste my time like that. Maybe go to dinner. Eating. Somthing every human needs to do, and what people from all walks of life have in common. Time to build some drug free friends. Maybe it is better to hang out with those who you feel are better than you, not worst than you.

When I have feelings of relapse I just think "better the frustration of not smoking, rather than the regreat that will happen 12 hours later, and then starting all over again."

quitting is cool, it really is. It shows strength and character. It shows that you see people heading down a road you don't want to go, have having the ability to go another path. Everyone is differnt so you can't apply your principles to others. But being an addict is something I clearly do not want.

[quitter]

sitting at home alone like being on house arrest really got to me. Bored out of my mind went to vist a friend and ended up smoking 2 times. Well back to the drawing board again I guess. But it doesn't look good.

[Lord Vee]

The Friends You Have Are Just A Small Pocket In Your Community, That Is The Ones Who Smoke. The Friends Outside Are Not Sure Of These People For Could They? Be Thiefs, Are They Worthy Of Knowing, Do They Hurt People As Do Them Selves. Self Indulgent That Is. If You Are A Real Friend Then This Should Never Cross The Minds Of Non Addicts. Support Is An Issue That I See. Grab Your Friend By The Short And Curly's And Let Them Know That A Hand Up Is A Hand Out. For There Are No Excuses To Let A Friend Go Through Tuff Times By Them Selves. Good On You For The Positive Feelings.

[quitter]

another smoke free day for me, cravings are still here and I want to smoke at least once in the next few days, hopefully I wont

[Anomoly]

Hey quitter,

I understand what your all about. I too have been smokin the weed for a good while now and can safely say i'm addicted to it in a big way. I used to only smoke it as a recreational drug with my friends allthough have since moved on from the majority of them. Since then I split up with my girlfriend and became very depressed and totally dependant on it because it really helped me get over it. Most of my current friends now dabble a little in the world of cocaine which luckily i've managed to steer clear from. But you can imagine when were sitting down having a laugh and thier all hyped up and i'm sittin there with my beer and a joint.

I made a new years resolution to stay off it and I havn't touched it in 6 days but im unable to sleep properly and I just don't feel that good so I think a relapse will be imminent. Perhaps a new hobby or something like that would take my mind of it but I dont know. My only real subsitute is bottles of stella which is no good. Instead of feeling relaxed and happy with the weed the stella makes me want to go out and have a fight.

I know weed isn't the worst drug in the word but its eating into my life in a big way!!

[erbalibera]

hey, I just happened on this thread and am wondering if you've managed to quit? I have been toying with the idea for years, don't have the guts. I keep seeing people's complaints about not being able to sleep. Try Valerian, tea or tincture I use it anyway to sleep. I think my new ploy will be to use imagining my lungs with all that nasty resin on them. And staying too busy, that might help. Any other suggestions?

[quitter]

well when ever i have it I smoke it, only for 3 days was i able to have some and not use it, but I don't think I can do that right now. I flushed it away a few times but after a week or so I picked up again. Its april now 4 month since my first post but not sucessful. yet

[erbalibera]

Hey quitter, I flushed my shake about 10 days ago and by the next afternoon had visited a friend to procure. I keep imagining that if I had a life that was a little less work and school oriented I would be more relaxed and wouldn't need to smoke. But it is nearly impossible to convince myself of anything, getting high just breaks the monotony of my life. Have you had any more luck with quitting?