i think i might be addicted to pot

[lilmisskate]

hi...

i didnt know where to talk to anybody. i dont really have any friends, or the friends i have dont want to hear about it. or they want me high.

i smoke about an ounce a week. 2 weeks ago, my roommate got arrested and the worst thing going through my mind was whether or not i should flush the weed, and where i would find more. i've chosen weed over food a bunch of times (though im an ex-anorexic, so food has never been high on my priorities list). my exfiance/best friend told me that if i smoked anymore, he would stop talking to me and get a restraining order on me, and possibly arrest me (he's a cop). but i keep on smoking. i've prostituted myself for weed money.

my roommate, before he lived with me, was homeless and addicted to crack. when he started living with me was when we started going through ounces a week. i agreed to get off xanax bars and he agreed to get off crack, so we got high off weed instead and figured it was safer. and i didnt worry about being addicted because i wasn't doing it alone, it was a social thing. we just always had something to celebrate about. and he was always here to reassure me that we werent addicted, we were self-medicating our respective old addictions, as well as our bipolar-ness. but now that he's been arrested, i keep doing it every night alone, and wake and bake on weekends, and i feel worse and worse about it so i smoke more until i pass out every night.

but the thing is that it doesn't interfere with my work. in fact, i'm excelling at work. i just got promoted and have already impressed my new boss with my work ethic. i've only been smoking since early december 2007 and i recently spent 2 days completely sober without wanting it at all. i always get everything done that needs to get done before i smoke, and i'm facing a month of having a very limited supply and i'm ok with that.

i don't know. im used to people running my life for me. i might just be looking for someone to reassure me that i'm not addicted. but i'm on my way to my first step if i am addicted, so i guess im just looking for opinions.

[96mustang]

im not positive but am pretty sure that weed carries no actual addicting properties maybe a little pyschological but other then that i wouldnt worry...i dont understand how you have this great job but are prostituting yourself for weed money???? anyway i wish you the best but will tell you this even our presidents got high so how bad can it be :p

[ccooper405]

I have smoked pot for 5 years everyday, 2 ounces a month. However I just entered an out-patient rehab for alcohol too. I was off pot for a week but then my b/f got an ounce. Yup I smoked a couple bowls. It felt alot different, I almost wanted the feeling to go away. I think that if your that serious about pot you should consider cutting back. It affects everyone differently. Like you at one time i axcelled when high, but lately I was just high all the time. I know you can get off it if you occupy your time with other activities, sitting at home is the worst thing for me to do, get out of the house, walk run, go for a drive. I feel ya!:D

[stevewm]

I have smoked pot off and on for years and have never had trouble going months without it.I have some friends though would convince someone other-wise they dont believe they can live without it.I have had pot and have even gave it away to friends because I just did not want it.They say man you must have alot of willpower but I tell them I have never found it addicting to me so I would say its all in their heads.

I dont believe its addicting period its a mental obsession to get high which im not.I self medicate with alcohol when my bipolar is in the manic phase to long.I have never been treated for bipolar but soon will be.

Take care.
Stevexxx.

[zip]

lil,

There are no addictive chemicals in marijuana. Sounds like you have convinced yourself that your addicted. I am concerned that you would go to the extreme of prostitution for herb. Honestly, I have never heard of such a thing. As for me, I don't smoke weed now, but I have in the past. Never had a problem putting it down.

I was a hardcore opiate user for a decade and benzo abuser for even longer. In short I have done every known prescription opiate under the sun. Over 3,500 mg of mixture of Fentanyl, Methadone, Morphine (Avinsa), Demerol, Oxycodone, Hydrocodonce, Propoxyphene. Also booted 30 to 40 cc of Dilaudid and Hydromorphine a day. Took 40 to 50 mg of Xanax a day for so...so long. Not to mention all the street drugs. But now I have been off the opiates for over 6 and half months. I could justify my drug use because I have broken over 40 bones; torn ligaments, muscles, tendons; reconstructed hip and shoulder, nerve damage from three shoulder dislocations and all this from playing pro soccer and PK martial arts. Moreover, I broke my neck in April and had surgery in July and was in Detox in Mid September. Talk about a living hell. I have broken my back on two other occassion from a car accident and martial arts. I have titanium plates holding me together. But since I stopped the opiates I suffer from little pain. The most powerful organ in your body is your brain/mind. My faith in God gives me the strength to keep going forward. Before I went to Detox (second time) I had two weeks to live. In fact, I had died 3 times from overdoses. Been shot 4 times and survived hitting a steel reinforced wall going 85 mph in my car.

It is hard for me to grasp how anyone can be addicted to herb. There are no physical withdrawals. Perhaps, it is the psychological aspect of the whole thing. I am not judging you...just hard to understand. God Bless