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[96mustang]

Ive been addicted to oxycontin and pain meds for almost 6 years now on and off, as I type this I am on day 3 of withdrawl and want nothing more then to be clean. Ive hit rock bottom physically mentally and financially and am in serious jeopardy of being kicked out of college because i miss so much class because of my habbit. My girlfriend, and family have no idea about my drug use and I feel that I could never tell them it would break my girlfriends heart and I know she would leave me because of all the lies. My parents i feel would truely turn their back on me because of the lies as well and I cant bare to put my mother through that much pain of knowing her one time star athlete, A student, who had everything is now a drug addict. I can deal with the the feelings like complete shit but the anxiety and depression is tearing me apart Im balling my eyes out as I type this and cant seem to stop. Ive been through the wd before but never with this much depression, maybe its because Ive realized how much Ive screwed up, I hate myself for doing this to my loved ones and I feel helpless at this point....I really cant remember how long it takes to feel better because its been so long since ive been clean..i really have nothing more to say but would greatly appreciate any suggestions or comments......
Thank you
Brandon

[ccooper405]

I was addicted to oxy for about a year. sadly i just switched to pot. But my boyfriend did not stop. Believe me I know what that kind of depression and guilt can do to someone. Have you ever thought of going to a methadone clinic? They are for people who have been doing heroin yet we know what oxy is just synthetic heroin. Look in your area for one. they can really help you with the withdrawls and they can give you support. But oxy is probably the hardest drug to get off of. Go to to a pschycologist, they can give you meds to help with the withdrawls and depression. Keep me posted on how your doing.:o