One last Horrah??

[WitchTownbum]

I basically lost my position at an upscale salon in Boston, crashed my new used piece of crap in a snow storm and hence moved in with my straight bf as a result in a quite suburb near Salem. Honestly, once I had no money in the bank and no car my boyfriend made it clear that he would toss my ass out if I ever used again. I cant go to my moms house. My father lives in a wicked rural town with like two existing businesses and with no car to get me there, what the fuck? So I decided it was time to clean up. I have been nearly 30 days sober, (from my drug of choice, heroin).
I have been going to NA meetings. Of course I originally was doing so to pick up a new connection because mine was over 30 minutes away and like I said, no transportation. I had never just casually connected with anyone because my balls aren't that big, no matter how sick I have been in the past.
Right now I am obviously not physically sick but I have a couple awesome job opportunities brewing and in the meantime just enough money and idlehands. Both of my future jobs involve piss tests...Then of course there is the risk of getting busted...I want to stay clean but the thought of NEVER DOING DRUGS AGAIN and my poison of course is practically giving me a panick attack. I don't have a habit at the moment what is so wrong with slipping a couple experiences in before I have to straighten out for good???

[unema]

Take it from someone in an uncanningly similar situation, ITS NOT WORTH IT! Really its not, no matter how many times you tell youself just this one time, cause in reality, your not thinkin of NOT doing it again. Your just focused on doing it again.

Smoke the herb instead :)

Bst wishes.

[tonys76]

Take it from Unema, it really isn't worth it! You'll find yourself addicted again in no-time, and finding yourself saying, well "one more time" isn't gonna hurt is it? That one more time turns into 20, turns in 200... and well, yeah you get the picture.

[sbartlett79]

Please, don't try it again. Your brain is just succumbing to your physical need and desire for heroin. This is always the downfall for all of us. You can't be a moderate addict. It doesn't work!

[WitchTownbum]

This isn't my first relapse I already know that there's no real thing as one last bit... it had almost been my 30 days and i was wicked wanting to slip up before i took this job...of course now they are doing a two week quarry on me and I've already started scheming to go for another run. Since my last habit nothing I enjoyed before compares by any means...I used to like drinking, a LOT..but now i just feel too bloated after a single beer to continue. Weed I actually started to like but its stays in the system 30 days. Thanks for your advice.

[exjunky]

I quit dope for 9 months then I started to get the "itch" and decided to have a little taste. A month later I had to have another taste. Now it's been a week since that, and I want to do it again. At this rate it won't be long before I'm using weekly, and once that happens it's just a matter of time before I'm using two, three times a week, then daily, then four times a day.

I know it's insane. Wish me luck. I'm telling you this hoping that you won't be as dumb as me. If we had self-control and discipline regarding our favorite drug, we wouldn't be addicts, would we now?

[0507 81]

Here is a # to call there a out pt detox that does confort meds 617-383-6405 it real helps with the craveings its very good program its in brookline but there is a office in woburn

[oppyit]

Im not standing on a pulpit here but i must tell you that if you really deep down inside wanna quit(and i dont think you really want to).Then you must refrain from all drugs.Even that innocent little hit or two off of a joint.
You gotta stay away from everything and everybody that does drugs.
Its tuff i know and im not tryin to be god im just sayin its the only way.
good luck