Partner's Addiction to heroin please help
My partner has been using heroin for approx 6/7 years now and also smokes crack. This I know because I have lived with him for 5 years, we have 2 children together and although I didn't know initially I found out. He eventually admitted it.
He has told me he smokes the heroin but won't give me any more details like where he goes to smoke it, how often etc etc.
All I know is that he spends around £15-20 a day on drugs (either the H the C or both??).
He is on a methadone programme and has been for a while now but sometimes he just pretends to take it and uses.
When I find out he promises he he'll stop and makes me feel sorry for him and guilty as if it's my fault so I always end up giving him another chance and the cycle starts again.
I am at the end of my rope though now with the money issues and arguments, the cycle of promises and the lies the whole things making me feel sick. I'm also worried because of the kids, when they get older they'll find out and stuff. He has lost weight, (he's very thin), pale, unhygienic, disappears for hours, looks gaunt and very very moody. He disappears all day from like 9 in the morning til 6 at night every day. He flits from being hyper to depressive in seconds.
He has done the nodding out thing but doesnt seem to do it as frequently as he used to lately - but I can tell when hes used because of his eyes and stuff, and I think its every day at least. I dont know how many times a day.
Although he claims to smoke it I'm sure hes injecting it but I can't find out for sure and although I've asked him he denies it vehmenently. I really worried because of the risk of hepatitis and HIV and if he is need to know for myself and the kids. How can I find out which way hes taking it - would he nod out just by smoking it or is that only with injecting it? I havent noticed any track marks but I might not know what they were if I looked right at them ???
Also what should I do about him? Should I stay and support him or kick him out? I don't know what to do for the best ive tried everything getting him on the methadone programme psychiatric help ive been supportive cried talked to him screamed at him called him names and nothing ever works
I dont think he wants to do it as such i think hes hooked and has to do it to feel 'normal'
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