Prescription Drug Abuse and Addiction

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Prescription drug addiction differs from other forms of drug abuse and addiction in that the abuse develops very subtly and the addiction, gradually. In many cases prescription drug use will start with a medical need. Those who use painkillers – one of the most common prescription drugs being abused – do not start out trying to get “high”; they only want to stop the pain.


Furthermore, those who become addicted to do not even consider themselves “addicts” because of the legality of the prescription drug they use.


The Addiction Worsens Progressively

An inpidual experiencing chronic pain will start out by taking the painkiller as prescribed. When the effect of the painkiller wears off, they take more pills than prescribed. Before they know it, they are taking their medication more than 5 - 7 times a day. Tolerance to the drug is then developed. Because they don’t feel the effect of the drug even if they take a lot of it, they may try a combination of methods in order to increase the effect including Valium and or alcohol. The painkiller abuse has therefore led to a dependency, which could be both physical and psychological.


Addicted inpiduals soon find their lives revolving around the medication. Instead of taking the correct step and talking to their doctor about the decreased effect of the medication or their sudden increase of dosage, they resort to “doctor shopping”. This means that they consult a different doctor every time in order to obtain a prescription. They are finding ways to feed their addiction.


This process of obtaining more medication is dangerous as it has significant effects on an inpidual’s health. The chronic pain sufferer may find that his medication does not produce the same results even with increased dosage. Soon, their body will start to crave for larger doses and the sufferer may develop tolerance for the drug which could lead to physical and psychological withdrawal symptoms. These symptoms may include:


Aside from “doctor shopping” a person addicted to painkillers will also resort to taking prescription drugs prescribed for someone else.


According to a newly released national study, today’s teens are at a very high risk of taking prescription medicines, such as painkillers, as a means of getting high. The 17th annual study on drug abuse found that in 2004, more teens had abused prescription pain medication than Cocaine, Crack, Ecstasy or LSD. The most common prescription medication being abused is Vicodin, with about 18% or 4.3 million youth admitting that they had used it to get high.


If you or someone you love is addicted to prescription pain medicine, remember that help is available. This addiction is not something to be ashamed of. Rather, it is something that needs addiction treatment as soon as possible.

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  1. Addict

    Iam a victum of addiction just as it is described in this blog. Iam searching for a way out as I type this message. The problem is that I don't have the money for an expensive rehab center and I must continue to work as I fight this horrible addition. Iam open to suggestion. Thanks Sal

    • Addict

      Depending on where you live....You should be able to apply for emergency medical care.

    • Addict

      Continuing to work is very understandable. If the option is available try considering using sick/vacation time. If your employer offers short term disability finds out if you qualify for a paid leave of absence, when my wife was pregnant I read her employers short/long term disability plan and found out that rehab WAS a qualifier. I don't know what job/career you are in but you need to understand that continuing can and will lead to one of the following:

      1. Loss of job (either being fired or quitting because you stop caring about everything but your next fix)
      2. Loss of family
      3. Arrest (I am a police officer AND was addicted to painkillers so I have a unique perspective... I've seen people get arrested for buying, possessing and selling these to feed the habit. In some cases the arrests were due to assaults that were linked to the extreme agitation that addiction causes. And when addicts get desperate they make rash and sometimes extreme decisions.

      You know all of this and so did I. But I only sought help when a good friend of mine told me..

      There are plenty of programs available that offer rehab for free or will work with you. Try calling local places that offer services for those suffering from mental illnesses. They will either offer rehab services or be able to direct you to the right place.

      Take it from me... as good as they make you feel now you will feel 10x better when it's over

    • Addict

      Depending on the drug you are addicted to. If you are addicted to painkillers like I was there is a medication you can take that will get you off the painkillers, stop withdrawals and allow you to work. And you can get it from a doctor’s office. It's called Suboxone. I used it and it works. Go to Google and search "Suboxone doctors" with your zip code. This is the best way to kick your addiction and still lead your normal life.

  2. Addict

    I am dealing ithmy mom who is addicted to painkillers just like this blog. Iwant to know the best way to help her.

    • Addict

      First of all I know you’re trying to help your mother but the main thing here is does she want to get off of them? The first step is that she has to want to get off of them without her wanting that then it will never happen.

    • Addict

      I came across this blog while googling ways to cope with the recent loss of my mother to prescription drugs. My mom had me her junior year of high school at 17 years old and raised me on her own. As a single full-time mother on her own, she managed to successfully acquire a bachelor's degree, masters, and jurist doctorate in criminal justice. She was not only my best friend, she was my idol. I didn't notice my mom had an addiction until my college years, when I would come home to visit and randomly find scripts for hardcore pain medication I knew she really didn't need. She was so brilliant that not only did she convince herself of multiple health conditions and ailments...she convinced me and evidently the doctors too. This is why I blame myself because as much as I knew in my heart it wasn't normal or ok...I trusted her judgment, especially because she had a degree and worked in substance abuse clinics before attending law school. As long as I live I will never forget the phone call I received two days after my 26th birthday. "She wouldn't wake up. Paramedics said there was nothing they could do"...I cry as I write this because not even 6 months ago I was in the same position as you and for the rest of my life I will live with regret of not taking action sooner. After all her accomplishments and giving me the best life she possibly could, my best friend was robbed of her life at 42 years young from pain management prescription drugs. I don't want you or anyone to ever have to feel the pain I live with every day. I am 26 years old, no siblings, no husband and no children. She won't be here to meet my children if I ever have any or to see me grow and succeed which she worked her whole life to make possible. She was all I had and lived for. My purpose in life was to make her proud and all the sacrifices she made to raise me alone as a single mother worth it. I don't care if you have to physically drag her to a rehab DO IT and do it asap! Pleas save yourself from living day to day with the would've, could've, should've's. I paid the ultimate price by denying and not accepting the reality of my mother's condition. I just couldn't fathom a woman so brilliant losing control of her life to pain meds. I learned the hard way that tomorrow is never promised. I suggest you get her into a rehab clinic immediately and be very aware of the type of rehab meds they give her because my mom died from respiratory failure from a pain management med...They are just as addictive as actual pain meds and highly prone to abuse. Try to get her in a clinic where they observe and administer the doses daily. My broken heart goes out to you and your family and I wish them a healthy recovery. God bless.

  3. Addict

    k Ran,
    I am dealing with my mom as well -- she has been taking valium for 25+ years. It is so hard and i am so tired of the never-ending struggle with her addiction. My mom doesn't think she has a problem -- it is the 'rest' of us. i want to know how to get her help as well -- i feel i have tried everything -- and don't know what else i can do.

    I just wanted to wish you Good luck and let you know you are not alone.

    sma

  4. Addict

    I have had a bad pain killer addiction for about 2 years now. I have had times where I stopped for several days and they were just pure hell. Eventually by the next day or so I would reload. Spending most of all my money that I make on them just to feel NORMAL!

    MY QUESTION IS....how/what can I do if I DON"T have health insurance and no money to spend on rehab? Is there things such as tylonal, asprin, ANYTHING that can be taken to dull the pain of the withdrawls??????? Please advise.

    THANK YOU

    J

  5. Addict

    I want to stop, I need to stop. I have a problem but no one knows but me. I hide my pills, and take too many. I want to hurt myself to just end the pain. There has to be some way out. Help me please

    • Addict

      You would be surprised how many people are going through the same thing and feel the same loneliness that you have described. Find a support group. A crisis line should be able to guide you. The important thing is that you know you have a problem and that is the first step. Also remember that addiction can be transposed if not recognized for what it is. It is an addictive personality disorder that can easily transfer to another behavior if steps aren't taken to stop it. Utilize your insurance or find a state program that will help. It only gets worse if not treated. Good luck!

  6. Addict

    is anyone there?? i am ceizing the use of painkillers tomorrow and i would love some support

    • Addict

      Hunker down. Get quinine water to cure the restless leg syndrome. Get good food like Juice, soothing foods because at times your body will crave nutrition again. Pray for divine healing in Jesus name and, if you can, get you Dr. to prescribe you Clonidine (a blood pressure med used for opiate detox), and anything else that will help. Good Luck. Gene

  7. Addict

    is there a club?!!!may i join plz...

  8. Addict

    I am dealing with my mom and her boyfriend who are both addicted to oxyconto (SP) painkillers. They live in CT, both are so messed up they are actually crazy and unrational. Losing their house, jobs, everything. Iwant to know the best way to help them, I even think they'd do rash things. We've all bailed them out financially, but I can't anymore and they're angry with me because I have to sell their home, which I bought to save from Foreclosure, but now they have ripped walls and floor out, the roof and furnace are going and they have no money. I'll lose my credit and kids college, I can't do that to my kids. I feel awful. They don't think the meds are a problem. But her boyfriend takes them until he looks like he' going to have a heart attack. We have the same family doctor, can I talk to them legally?

  9. Addict

    The problem with pharmacutical medication addiction lies within the medical community and the Legislative. Laws have not been passed that hold the medical professional accountable. Instead, ineffective social programs are implemented and maintained with our tax dollars. The simplest solution would be to pass stick laws governing the medical and pharmacutical industries and holding the industries accountable for rehab cost instead of the individual and taxpayer. This in turn would require elected officials to declare issues and plans with quarterly reports to constituents as to action, reaction, and alternative measures taken. IN this manner we could gain control of legislation and thereby make the elected work for us instead of financial backers/lobbist. It is totally illogical to seek help considering the ineffectiveness of help available in Wisconsin today. I don't know about other states but suspect similiar situations exist there also. I was appalled when I looked into the amount of public monies spent, the administrative costs, and salaries and benefits, the small numbers of persons served and lastly the even smaller numbers of persons fully rehabed. It is no wonder that WI govt is broke considering the way our tax money is squandered for state employees and contract service providers salaries/benefits.

  10. Addict

    I am an addict. I have been addicted to pain killers of all kind for about a year and a half now. I am a recovering meth addict. I used for 4 years and have been clean for 3 but now this is the worse I have ever been. I have been kicked out of my house because of my addiction and now I am supposed to continue to work and fix my life. I dont know what to do. Any advice will be appreciated.

  11. Addict

    I have been with my boyfriend for 5 years now and we have a little 2 year old daughter together. I have been dealing with addiction to sleeping pills, tranquilizers and anything else he can get his hands on for all this time now. I have left him, given him a 100 chances to change and am now still with him hoping for some kind of light at the end of this tunnel. I have threatned him, sworn that I am going to leave and take our child away, aaahhhhh ... so many things. Things have gotten so bad that he is now lying to me about it. When I can tell from am mile away he is high. He has also started going behind my back, with my money and buying this crap. If he can't get a prescription he will buy the strongest, most effective stuff over the counter. I don't know what to do anymore. This is affecting my relationship once again and he has become untrustworthy and dicietefull. He is only 22 years old and I am 24. I am a lot maturer than him and feel I often lose the plot when I finally get it out of him that he is on this stuff. He has family members that join him in this addiction and well I am now at my ends wit.
    Please, I need some advice as to what I should do. I don't want my child growing up with this. Also I dont know if I can trust him with her either as he is untrustworthy in every other department.
    Should I leave for good this time and move on with my life? Take my little girl away from this and never let her be apart of it? I just can't take it anymore!!!!!
    PLEASE I am desperate.

  12. Addict

    Addiction is inevitable if opioids are taken long-term or in high dosesand the risk of addiction is very high for short term use.

    This myth stems from confusion about the nature of addiction. Many people believe that addiction is simply needing a substance to functionbut if this were the case, everyone would have to be considered addicted to food, air and water. To the average person, addiction is going cold turkey they view addiction as physical dependence, says Pasternak.

    In fact, psychiatry defines addiction as compulsive use of a substance despite negative consequencesand it is this craving, impairment and loss of control that people fear. However, while most people who take opioids for long enough will develop physical dependence and suffer withdrawal if the drugs are stopped abruptly, addiction in pain patients is rare.

    The reality is that addiction appears to be distinctly uncommon in patients without a prior history of addiction or a family history of addiction, Portenoy says. In his own research on more than 200 patients treated with OxyContin for chronic pain over three years, no new cases of addiction were reported.

    Over 30 years, Ive seen a few thousand patients with cancer and sickle cell [disease] and other [conditions], and less than five that Im aware of became addicted, Payne says.

  13. Addict

    My daughter is an addict. She started with pain killers prescribed to her by the dentist when she got her braces on at the age of 14. I don\'t think it became a problem until she was 15 or 16, but nevertheless, it escalated into other drugs, and ended with heroin and a year in jail, 2 months in a rehab and 4 more months in a halfway house, all mandated by the court. She will be on parole for 5 years. I also feel like I\'m on parole for 5 years. All I can say is ask for help. Stop torturing yourself, stop torturing your parents and others that love you and get help and live. Live long and happy!

    • Addict

      WHAT you let your daughter take Vicodin and she's only 14 OMG poor thing. I gave my girls Tylenol and that's it. I feel sorry take her she just might need to take them forever. It's not easy to get off of them. The best thing is to; take 1/4 off every 6 days. It will work it worked with me.

  14. Addict

    Hey everybody. I'm new 2 this website, but I just went thru & read all the blogs on prescription pill abuse. I am living proof that it can be beat! I struggled with the addiction, on and off, for almost 7 yrs! I took lortab/ vicodin/ percocet, any pain pill I could get my hands on. And I don't mean like one or two, @ my worst I was taking 15- 20 10's a day! I had a $200 a day habbit. That's $1,400 a week, $5,600 a month... ALMOST $70,000 a year! I mean, yeah, occasionally, I'd get a script from my doc. In fact, when I was 16 I got my molars removed. I got a script of thirty 5 or 7.5 mg. lortabs. That was the best week of my life! Sleep in til 10 or 11, wake up, eat a lil sumthin, take a couple pills, feel good 4 a lil while, go 2 back 2 sleep, wake up, take a couple more, & so on & so on! If only I could step back in time & scream @ myself... "DONT TAKE THEM, U WILL GET ADDICTED, U WILL DO HORRIBLE THINGS 2 PEOPLE U LOVE, JUST 2 GET $ 2 FEED UR ADDICTION!" Now, that I'm older, I c the occasional commercial talkin bout how kids don't even have 2 leave home 2 get high anymore, they just go in their parent's medicine cabinet. It's SO true & I wish I could explain the w/ds I went thru 2 them 2 try & get them 2 understand. The vomiting, skin crawling, itchin, & hurtin, layin in the bed 4 DAYS @ a time, just tryin 2 scheme up sum way 4 me 2 get @ least $100- $200 2 get me thru that day. I had been seein the same doctor as my whole family, 4 years and years. Well, I fucked that up! I did something really stupid & never went back. I think more out of bein just plain ashamed of myself. Obviously, I was embarassed & completely terrified 2! Terrified they would press charges, terrified they would tell my family, JUST TERRIFIED! So, then what? Well, I go about a mo. or 2 w/o a doc. & just buy from these 3 women I know... but, that started addin up REALLY fast! I went thru about $50,000 in less than a year! So, I get a new doc. I go 2 my 1st appt. & wear sum lil short shorts, revealing top, u know the drill! Well, he's married, obviously not lookin my way any more than he should, & 2 top it all off, he knew my, @ the time fiance & his whole family! I think that day I wound up havin 2 go 2 the emergency room & I only scored like 12 5's... like that would even get me thru the day?!? If u think that's a lot, that's not even the half of it! After that, I started gettin braver & braver, until 1 day I got BUSTED! I woulda stayed in jail, got a lawyer, & tried 2 do it on my own. But, my husband called my parents b/c they were the only people he knew that had the kinda $ that was needed 2 get me out. God & a really (expensive) good lawyer got me outta that 1. WHEW!! Things were horrible, I wasn;t sure if my engagement was on or off b/c of the issues we were havin due 2 my addiction! It was causing family problems, obviously I was killin myself slowly, my finances were dead & I was about 2 wish I was! My lady that I could always go 2, even if she just had 1, she'd give it 2 me so I wouldnt have 2 b w/o. Well, she went out of town for a week. I knew it was coming, so I tried to prepare myself, I bought all that she had b4 she left. I even made up a chart tellin me @ what time, on each day, how many lortabs I could have! Needless 2 say, I didnt stick 2 my chart & I ran out 2 days b4 she got home. That was the most painful experience I have EVER had 2 go thru in my whole entire life, but it was also what SAVED my life! I distinctly remember standing in the laundry room, with each hand on the bleach bottle, & I just kept thinkin "if u swallow it fast enuf, it wont burn 2 bad & b4 u kno it this will all b over w/ & u will no longer feel all this pain!" But @ that moment, I believe my grandmother, God rest her soul, was lookin over me. I couldn't do it, it's not suppossed 2 end this way. I wanna be welcomed in2 the gates of heaven & c all my loved 1s I've been longin 2 c! At that moment I called a doctor's office # that I had been researchin about. They treated opoid addiction, which, if u didn't kno is pain pills AND HEROIN! I had no clue all that time I was messin w/ something equally as fatal as heroin. But, 2 wrap this up & so that y'all kno there is @ least 1 success story out there & maybe u can be the next! As odd as this sounds, I actually got sum sleep & was already beginning 2 feel better, just b/c I knew I was about 2 get help. When I got to the doctor's office, the doc ran sum simple tests on me, asked me a few ?s, & then gave me a script 4 suboxone & sum ambien 2 help me sleep. I'm tellin u not 15 mins. of the med. bein under my tongue, the w/ds wwere almost completely gone. I'm not gonna lie, I hadn;t had anything in so long, it made me feel a lil "speedy." I think really though, it just gave me a much needed boost of energy! I have 2 say thanks 2 my husband tho b/c if not 4 him, I would probably not be alive 2day. He told me that he would give me the $300 if I would just go & get the med 2 get me off the tabs. I know sum of u mite be thinkin, well, isn't that just tradin 1 pill addiction 4 another 1? That's what I thought, until I took Suboxone. It's chemical structure is made up 2 whee that u won't keep needin more & more. In fact, I started out @ 3 a day & that was in September, just 9 mos. ago & I'm off!! As of today, I have been clean goin on 10 mos! I got married May 10, we just got back from our honeymoon, & we hope 2 expand our family in the near future. To do that, I've gotta have my body as healthy as possible! So, 4 all u folks out there who think life isnt worth livin anymore b/c addiction is killin either u or a loved one. Save up the $. U don't have 2 have ins., in fact the doc. I went 2 said that they couldn't accept ins. 4 suboxone treatment anyways. Think about how much $ u r waistin on pain pills now? Instead of spending $ 2 kill urself, save up the $ 2 save ur life! Every day that u walk this green Earth, u should bend down and kiss it & thank ur lucky stars. The decision is all urs, live or die?

  15. Addict

    I am dealing with my mother who is addicted to pain killers for about 30 + years. She just recently fell and broke her neck and is now paralyzed so now we are dealing with and addict and a spinal cord injury. I am so done and I need assistance from whoever to just get through it.

  16. Addict

    RXPOPPER is right. Just dont take pills.One day you will just be taking some of your parents pain pills to get high,the next thing you know your ADDICTED and you wont just want them--you will NEED them.I was on pain pills-but mostly just snorting oxycontin Everyday-for two years.And im only sixteen.Dont for one second think you cant get addicted to it because once it happens your life will be completely upside down.Your life will revolve around your pills.Everything you do Everyday will first be about if you have pills.And if you dont have pills--all i can describe withdrawals as HELL.I\'ve been clean for a couple months,but i noticed for pain-pill addicts they are addicted for the rest of their life whether their clean or not.And i believe that no matter what i do, I know i will always have that part of me that will want pain pills to do simple things like getting up and going to work.So think about it before you take one to get high.

  17. Addict

    My 31 year old son has been addicted to Ultram for over 4 years. Started out seeking relief from back pain. GO TO A CHIROPRACTOR! DO NOT TRY THESE PAIN MEDS. Adjustments fixed his back problem. However, he was already dependent on Ultram to keep him feeling functional. More and more, top useage 50-60 per day. It\'s a wonder he is still alive. Physically, he could not stop as the withdrawal is hell. He had to keep working to keep buying the pills to keep functioning, and round and round it goes. Everything you earn goes to buy more pills. Spent $1500-$2000 per month. Financially ruined. Lost home, lost wife & daughter, lost a job, credit is shot from using credit cards to buy more pills. After his 2nd seizure, without health insurance, he was admitted to an indigent bed at the detox unit for 3 nights. It is now 23 days after the seizure. Not using Ultram for 23 days. Withdrawal symptoms are still strong. Diahhrea, extreme fatigue, trouble sleeping, body aches, deep coughing, and still unable to go back to work. Starts outpatient group and individual therapy next week thru the county, without health insurance. The grace of God will save him.

  18. Addict

    Hi, My name is AJ and I'm an addict and alcoholic. I too was addicted to vicodin. Vicodin helped me with energy, and being a waitress it gave me energy and a buzz most of the day. I started off by having teeth pulled that could have been filled. And any medication my family got I always was in control of how much they needed hoping there would be leftovers that were mine. I may have had a couple of scripts here and there, but mostly i bought my pills on the street at $2.50 a pill. my addiction to vicodin escalated from one pill a day to 10 just to get out of bed. I knew I was addicted but I did not realize the effects of damage to your liver. This scared me because I was also an alcoholic, which effects your liver. I also have hep-c which also causes damage to your liver. I knew I had to quit but every new morning would bring on terrible withdrawal pains without the drug. Once the pills start working between 20 minutes to a half hour you slowly feel like you are coming back to life. I loved the feeling of Vicodin. One morning when getting myself together to go cop some pills, my dealer had ran out. He had many people devastated. Well there was on girl there that knew I had a script of XanaX asked me if I wanted to trade off some of my Xanax for some vicodin. I said ok, of course and she then told me to come to her house to make the trade. While there, not knowing much at all about her, her phone rang it was her crack dealer waiting in her driveway. When she returned from outside she told me she had just bought some crack. Me being a human garbage can for anything that took me out of misery asked her if I could try some. WELL I took one hit and knew i liked it and asked for a second hit and then went home I felt great,ON TOP OF THE WORLD. When I got home I said to myself call her up and get that dealer back to the house I wanted more of my own to smoke as I pleased. She called, he came and smoking crack i became addicted immediately. Sadly the girl who couldn't get off the vicodin was now addicted to crack. The crack was so powerful that I just switched my addiction. The crack was so strong it masked the withdrawal from the Vicodin. I smoked crack for 2 years .Was in approximately 8 psych wards, 2 Rehabs, outpatient programs, and my family had had it. I robbed everyone in my family, pawned all my gold, became none caring about everything except the crack. I have been clean over a year from drugs and alcohol. Little by little my family is starting to trust me.I went to hell and back and I will not wake up ever again with the horrors. I now wake and don't have any regrets of yesterday. In my sobriety I lost my 22 year old daughter to a heroin overdose, she just stopped breathing in her sleep. August 22 will be one year since my daughters death. I can't help but feel mostly responsible for my daughters addiction seeing that she watched me for years drinking and drugging. This is one of the reasons I stay clean and now go through my emotions not around them. I cannot let her death be in vane. It is my responsibility for once and for all stop this cycle of addiction that has plagued my family for generations. Since her death I become to hate addiction it disgusts me to think of my life back when i was using. If you too have a problem, do yourself and your family the best gift you can give them, your sobriety. God Bess AJ

  19. Addict

    Hi, My name is AJ and I'm an addict and alcoholic. I too was addicted to vicodin. Vicodin helped me with energy, and being a waitress it gave me energy and a buzz most of the day. I started off by having teeth pulled that could have been filled. And any medication my family got I always was in control of how much they needed hoping there would be leftovers that were mine. I may have had a couple of scripts here and there, but mostly i bought my pills on the street at $2.50 a pill. my addiction to vicodin escalated from one pill a day to 10 just to get out of bed. I knew I was addicted but I did not realize the effects of damage to your liver. This scared me because I was also an alcoholic, which effects your liver. I also have hep-c which also causes damage to your liver. I knew I had to quit but every new morning would bring on terrible withdrawal pains without the drug. Once the pills start working between 20 minutes to a half hour you slowly feel like you are coming back to life. I loved the feeling of Vicodin. One morning when getting myself together to go cop some pills, my dealer had ran out. He had many people devastated. Well there was on girl there that knew I had a script of XanaX asked me if I wanted to trade off some of my Xanax for some vicodin. I said ok, of course and she then told me to come to her house to make the trade. While there, not knowing much at all about her, her phone rang it was her crack dealer waiting in her driveway. When she returned from outside she told me she had just bought some crack. Me being a human garbage can for anything that took me out of misery asked her if I could try some. WELL I took one hit and knew i liked it and asked for a second hit and then went home I felt great,ON TOP OF THE WORLD. When I got home I said to myself call her up and get that dealer back to the house I wanted more of my own to smoke as I pleased. She called, he came and smoking crack i became addicted immediately. Sadly the girl who couldn't get off the vicodin was now addicted to crack. The crack was so powerful that I just switched my addiction. The crack was so strong it masked the withdrawal from the Vicodin. I smoked crack for 2 years .Was in approximately 8 psych wards, 2 Rehabs, outpatient programs, and my family had had it. I robbed everyone in my family, pawned all my gold, became none caring about everything except the crack. I have been clean over a year from drugs and alcohol. Little by little my family is starting to trust me.I went to hell and back and I will not wake up ever again with the horrors. I now wake and don't have any regrets of yesterday. In my sobriety I lost my 22 year old daughter to a heroin overdose, she just stopped breathing in her sleep. August 22 will be one year since my daughters death. I can't help but feel mostly responsible for my daughters addiction seeing that she watched me for years drinking and drugging. This is one of the reasons I stay clean and now go through my emotions not around them. I cannot let her death be in vane. It is my responsibility for once and for all stop this cycle of addiction that has plagued my family for generations. Since her death I become to hate addiction it disgusts me to think of my life back when i was using. If you too have a problem, do yourself and your family the best gift you can give them, your sobriety. God Bess AJ

  20. Addict

    My daughters father is addicted to \"roxys\"!! He has changed in so many ways and has changed me. I am so angry with the things he does from stealing from me to lying to me that I have slapped him, thrown his stuff all over the street, ad argued with him multiple times. I feel that these have ruined our chance for a family. He now says he is going to another state to get help in an inpatient program. PLEASE HELP ME UNDERSTAND!!!! Will he realize that he has changed my soul and who I am with this mess? He was barely there for me while I was pregnant and has barely been there through the first year of our daughters life. He takes pills I have had for after the birth and asks for money to help him so he is not sick and I dont want to see him hurt so I help but now we are apart and he treats me like I am nothing.My anger is VERY high from this and I would like the old me back as well as the old him. Will this treatment show him how he affects others?

  21. Addict

    When I was younger my mom had a really bad addiction to painkillers. My parents were divorced because of it. She use to hide them in her pillow case and pockets in plastic bags, that\\\'s all I really remember. I didn\\\'t really know much then. I wasn\\\'t sure what was going on. I remember one night she came home and was really fucked up. I don\\\'t remember much of what had happened. All I remember was my dad telling me it would be okay. I sat at the window as the paramedics took her away. I had my hand on the window as if I was trying to touch her, let her know I was there. I was crying so much. I was scared, I didn\\\'t know what was going to happen. She was in a rehab center and I remember my dad taking my little sister and I to visit her. I wasn\\\'t as understanding then as I was now. I cried a little when I saw her but all I remember was thinking wow this place is cool there is a swimming pool and basketball court here. Then she was sent away to Boca Raton, Flordia to a rehab center which I think really helped her. My parents got divorced because my dad couldn\\\'t continue to deal with her addiction. We didn\\\'t talk to her for about four years due to my dad having coustody. It wasn\\\'t as hard then, but it still upset me. She would randomly call the house and if I were to answer, I\\\'d get scared and just hang up. Now that I\\\'m older I really understand things alot better. It was really hard going through a time period without my mom there. It wasn\\\'t until about somewhere around 6th or 7th grade I started to see her again. It was limited visitation but it was still something. As things got better, so did she. She started getting her life on track and I had my mom back in my life. I understand everything now and sometimes I think I\\\'m more of a mother to her. I help her through things. I\\\'m now 17 years old and a senior in high school. My mom and I have gotten so close. She is my best friend and I love her so much. She just recently had a relapse and it hurt me more then anything. She was put back in the same rehab center for a few days. When I went in to visit her all the memories started to come back to me. I walked into the lobby and remembered sitting on that couch with my dad and sister 8 years before waiting to go in and see her. It was alot different now. I was visiting her alone. I went in to see her and we talked about everything. I really thought it was just a small relapse and she would get her life back together when she got out. Her husband now hit her the other night. Bruised her badly. She was also in a bad car accident last night and was beat up from that. She didn\\\'t sound right when I talked to her this morning but I took her word for it that she wasn\\\'t on any pills. I went over and cleaned her up today, she was bruised badly and I got upset just looking at her. She looked a mess. I called one of her friends and arranged for her to stay there for a few nights because she couldn\\\'t stay in her house if she was being beat. She fed me stories and I believed them. She laid down and I went downstairs and got on the computer. It was almost 6 and that\\\'s what time her friend was coming to get her. I went upstairs to wake her up and get her ready and I couldn\\\'t wake her up. She\\\'s a deep sleeper so I thought that was it. I yelled and screamed and shook her until she woke up. I checked to make sure she was breathing and she was. She had siliva dripping from her mouth and when I talked to her all she could do from make a groaning noise. I was scared. I was worried she took something. Then she rolled over and I found two blue pills laying aside her. That\\\'s when I knew she took something again. I was scared to death and didn\\\'t know what to do. I had to call 911 and that\\\'s what I did. I was afraid if I didn\\\'t something what happen. What if I wasn\\\'t there, would she even still be alive? I got off the phone with 911 and told her they were coming to take her. She groaned a little and finally found it in her to get out a few words. She said fuck you. Over and over she said fuck you to me. It hurt more than anything that has ever been said to me. All I was doing was helping her and I know it was the right thing to do. The paramedics came to take her and I told her I loved her. No matter what happened she is my mother, not only that but my best friend as well and I love her more then anything in the world and I want nothing but for her to be okay. I couldn\\\'t stop crying. Not just because I was scared but because I couldn\\\'t believe this was happening...again. It was hard enough going through it when I was young and nieve about it all but now i\\\'m 17 years old. I know what pills do to people and I know my mom, she is better then this, she can get through her problems in other ways she just needs to choose to do that. As I watched them take her away and saw the ambulence lights outside I remembered years back sitting at my window watching them take her away. I remembered how scared I was. I was more upset now. More upset then I have ever been. I stood there with my hand on the window looking at her and watching the lights. She looked a mess, but I knew she was in good hands. I did what I could to help her and she still chose the pills. It hurts like hell but i\\\'m praying and praying that she gets better, that she over comes this. She\\\'s better then this and I want to see her get better. Taking pills not only hurts you, but the ones who love and care about you. She kept saying to me, \\\"Walk a mile in my shoes then tell me everything will be okay.\\\" It\\\'s not only her who is in pain. I can\\\'t imagine ever being more upset then I am right now after seeing this happen again. It hurts so bad. I\\\'m so happy I was there to call 911, that I went upstairs and found her before it was to late, that I made the right decision instead of trying to take care of her on my own. It hurts, but it\\\'s a learning expierence. More then anything she has taught me what drugs do to you. How they hurt the ones who love you along with yourself. She has made me a stronger person having delt with this young and now dealing with it again. I love and care about her so much and want nothing more but for her to get better. If you have an addiction, let someone know. Get help before it\\\'s to late. Think about how bad your hurting the ones who love you, because I can\\\'t explain enough how bad it hurts.

  22. Addict

    I am 18 yrs old and in a relationship with someone who is 23. We have been together for a year and he was addicted to vicodin when we first started dating. (i didn\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\'t know) Well, when i found out i told him to stop or i would leave. He claims to have stopped but, i just dont believe him. His whole entire family is addicted to any type of prescription they can get their hands on. I only see him about once a week and he lives with them 24/7. he says he hasnt touched anything in months. I just dont know if i should believe him. any advice?

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    Hello Everyone, My name is Scott and I am An ADDICT and have been for about ten years. At first I thought I had it under control taking about 2 a day, and then my body got ammuned to them and then i started taking 4 lortab 10`s every hour on the hour. They just made me focus on work, I could do my job with ease and go about my my bussiness. Then reality set in, I started spending every extra money I could get my hands on. Don`t get me wrong I still took care of my family, but the extra money if we needed a new water heater, go to the savings and take it out. It got to the point were I woke up every morning with a hand full of pills in one hand and a gun in the other and had litorally make a choice, take the pills or shoot myself and the pills always won. That is how strong they can be. But I moved to another state and got away from them for awhile. Then moved back and started them all over again. You may not believe me,but I never stole anything from family or friends too support my habit, I always found a way to get the money to get them. But this past Christmas I lost my job, and I was at the end of my road. I didn`t tell my FIANC`E AND I started taking back presents that i got her for the holiday`s. Took the money straight to the dealer and got what I needed. after getting high and then realizing what I had done, I felt like the biggest peace of shit on the. I never thought in a million years that I would do such a thing as too take from someone I loved so dearly. I went and too a test drive in a truck at a friends car lot and got the hell out of dodge. With a full bottle of sleeping pills and I was not coming back unless I was in a body bag. But the pills didn`t work, I keeped waking up on the middle of the night hoping it was just a dream, but it was real. I couldn`t go back and face the that I hurt, cause all along I thought the did`nt love me. Boy was I wrong, since i have been back for 2 weeks I have got into a program and they really care about what happens too you. Then I found this site and I read some of the stories on here and I cried for the family`s that are going through the same thing, or they are helping out a loved one and I just want too let you that I am here too support you too and if there is anything I can do, or if you just want too talk please e-mail me at tsperkins08@yahoo. Don`t let another day go by without telling someone you are there for them when they need help. That is what happened to me, and when AI finally addmitted I had a problem my family came from all over the state too be by my side and I want you to know we can get through this together if we just stick together. Even though I don`t know any of you I love each and everyone of you with as a brother or sister and please contact me if you need too talk, I`m always on the computer and will respond too you asap.

    Truly your friend
    Scott Perkins

  24. Addict

    Hello Everyone, My name is Scott and I am An ADDICT and have been for about ten years. At first I thought I had it under control taking about 2 a day, and then my body got ammuned to them and then i started taking 4 lortab 10`s every hour on the hour. They just made me focus on work, I could do my job with ease and go about my my bussiness. Then reality set in, I started spending every extra money I could get my hands on. Don`t get me wrong I still took care of my family, but the extra money if we needed a new water heater, go to the savings and take it out. It got to the point were I woke up every morning with a hand full of pills in one hand and a gun in the other and had litorally make a choice, take the pills or shoot myself and the pills always won. That is how strong they can be. But I moved to another state and got away from them for awhile. Then moved back and started them all over again. You may not believe me,but I never stole anything from family or friends too support my habit, I always found a way to get the money to get them. But this past Christmas I lost my job, and I was at the end of my road. I didn`t tell my FIANC`E AND I started taking back presents that i got her for the holiday`s. Took the money straight to the dealer and got what I needed. after getting high and then realizing what I had done, I felt like the biggest peace of shit on the. I never thought in a million years that I would do such a thing as too take from someone I loved so dearly. I went and too a test drive in a truck at a friends car lot and got the hell out of dodge. With a full bottle of sleeping pills and I was not coming back unless I was in a body bag. But the pills didn`t work, I keeped waking up on the middle of the night hoping it was just a dream, but it was real. I couldn`t go back and face the that I hurt, cause all along I thought the did`nt love me. Boy was I wrong, since i have been back for 2 weeks I have got into a program and they really care about what happens too you. Then I found this site and I read some of the stories on here and I cried for the family`s that are going through the same thing, or they are helping out a loved one and I just want too let you that I am here too support you too and if there is anything I can do, or if you just want too talk please e-mail me at tsperkins08@yahoo. Don`t let another day go by without telling someone you are there for them when they need help. That is what happened to me, and when AI finally addmitted I had a problem my family came from all over the state too be by my side and I want you to know we can get through this together if we just stick together. Even though I don`t know any of you I love each and everyone of you with as a brother or sister and please contact me if you need too talk, I`m always on the computer and will respond too you asap.

    Truly your friend
    Scott Perkins

  25. Addict

    I recently discovered my boyfriend is very addicted to oxy-contin. I found a disturbing Craigslist ad he had posted, soliciting himself for the drug and it is tearing me apart. I cannot watch this happen to someone I love, I already watched an uncle die of alcoholism as a kid and it's too painful. He was in rehab at a halfway house and ran away last week. Please pray for him, I don't know where he went or if I will ever see him again. It scares me so, I don't know what to do.

  26. Addict

    My boyfriend is addicted to any kind of perscription pain medication he can get his hands on. he takes about 10-15 pills a day. he knows he has a problem and wants help but the problem with that is all the treatment centers and rehab centers i have tried all want like 5,000 dollars for their services. that is crazy. how do they expect someone to get help if they cant afford it?my question to you is ...does anyone know of any treatment centers that are low cost?

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    I was addicted for three years. It got so bad that I was taking 15 to 20 pills a day. Sometimes on really bad days I would get so sick from taking so many, vomiting almost passing out. It was terrible. I got off of them when I was pregnant with my second child. After having her i started having problems and have been back on them. I dont feel that I am in active addiction as of yet. I am scared that i will be again soon. My tolerance is building again, and I dont know how much is to much on a daily basis. I cant seem to get any answers when it comes to that question. I am also a nursing mother and ive been told its ok to take pain meds while nursing. I have not noticed any differences in her while taking them. I am scared of my tolerance building. I am scared that I will hurt her if i take more than whats prescribed. As of now i take 2 7.5s every 4 hours and supposedly thats ok. I am just not sure. It seems that this addiction is an epidemic and getting straight answers from pharmicists is ridicoulous. They either completely disagree with the doctor and say to not take them at all, or they are indifferent. Ive looked on the web too and everything is contradictory. Can anyone tell me anything regarding this???

  28. Addict

    before i started to be and addict i took the pills just for pain. Then as time went past i noticed a change in me. I needed more of the dosage to feel no pain. I thought it was just me, you know like it was just the pills it was stupid. I started taking 2 double as much and i saw myself needing of it. I hated not being high of the pills. I hate it still but i hate that im addicted also. I want a way out of my addiction i wish i never met drugs in my life. They ruined it i wish i was a kid that all he thought about was about others but all i think about is stealin pills from my aunt that has cancer... Im going to hell and i know it. I hate this with all my life. Its so hard to stop. I keep trying and trying but the cravings just keep coming. Im scared to tell my girlfreind. I told her i quit, but she thought all i did was smoke. I just started back again after being sober for 9 months without pills. I recently took hydros oxys and propoxophene. I cant stop i swore to never do this again. IM SO JUST WANTING TO DIE I CANT STOP MY CRAVINGS. Im only 15. My emotional pain is scarring me for life. Please someone help me!!!!!!!

  29. Addict

    Well... where to start? just searching for some help i guess. When i was about 9 my mom had her first back surgery. Now she has had to get spinal fusion 3-4 times. When i was 12 yrs old my mother volunteered to be the donor of half of her liver to my little cousin. She has taken prescription painkillers as long as i can remember. My mother and father seperated and divorced when i was around 15 yrs of age. that is when my hellish life began. my mother developed an addiction to meth. i was young and scared. I pretty much single handedly raised my two younger sisters do to my mothers addiction to illegal narcotics and my fathers angry mental and physical abuse. Luckily enough, when i was about to turn 18 yrs old my mother was arrested and convicted for going to a motel room to by meth, which was really an undercover sting operation by the dea. She was forced to prison time, probation, and rehab. I tried to stay strong for my family. My sister is actually goin to graduate in a week. My mother did her time and rehab and is nearly done with probationary time, but a recent spinal fusion has sent her spiraling downwards. She takes so many pills... some to stop pain, some to shit, some to pee, some to stop her from shitting, more to ease the pain, and some to deal with the stress. I wasn't recently aware of how big of a problem it was. I now am 2 weeks away from turning 21, and have been living on my own since turning 19. Recently i came to stay with my mom and two sisters to catch up on things. My mother sits a mumbles short statements that make no sense. She doesnt' sleep because of what she says... she has to be up to get the girls off to school and be a good mom. I thought it was kinda weird but figured she would do anything to try and gain my families trust back. Until tonight. Around 2 in the morning i woke up to a loud slam on the floor. I rushed out of bed to investigate and found my mother on the kitchen tile crying. She had hurt her back and knees. I helped her to bed after assessing that nothing was broken. After i got her in bed i packed my 14 year old sister to my moms room so she could sleep with somebody. As i looked around things were wierd. Their was cereal strewn across the counter, oven cleaner all over the stovetop, a half load of laudry hanging out of the dryer, and a few other odd things clumsily left throughout the living area. So i woke my mom up and began to talk to her. Seems she doesnt remember anything except feeling tired at our 6 oclock dinner that i made for the fam. I need help. How can i help her? I believe she truly does need medicine to help with the pain but im no doctor. Is there any way to try and bring focus to her life? better sleep, if any at all? Diet ideas? I would consult a physician but my experiance thinks they will produce another medication as an alternative. Im scared that my mom will take her life or do something crazy and not even know that she is doing it. please i need help. I can no longer be the man of the house. it is to painful to watch my disfunctional family try to coexist with the use of medication. please any ideas would help. Thankyou for your time. -J

  30. Addict

    Thank you all for sharing this information. My friend just came to me about her drug abuse and addiction. Your stories give me hope that she will get out of it... alive!

  31. Addict

    Hi, I'm 31 years old, have 2 beautiful children and a brother that I take care of. My addiction to Percocet and Lortab started around two and a half years ago when my mother was diagnosed with cancer. She and my brother lived by themselves after my dad and sister died. After she could no longer care for herself or my brother, I placed her into the nursing home that I worked at. She died 2 months after that and I was left a single mother of 2 and now a handicapped brother to take care of.

    I remembered how pain medication had made me feel following a surgery I had. I remembered how they made me feel totally at ease and how I had a never ending amount of energy. Two and a half years later, I am sitting in a house that is going to be foreclosed on soon.

    I am suffering from major depression, taking 20-25 pills a day. When I wake up in the morning I take my pills before I go to the bathroom. I take them and I sit and try not to move at all until they kick in. My body doesn't even feel like my own anymore. I feel so sick, disgusted and alone. I have tried to quit several times, even once going to rehab for one week but within several days I was back taking the pills stronger than ever.

    I don't know what to do. I am very hopeless and scared to death that I am going to have serious legal or health consequences, maybe both. At the same time, I'm more scared of life without them. I have lied, stolen, and hid my addiction from people and essentially have now isolated myself. I am overwhelmed on a daily basis to the point of thinking that I am going to die of a heart attack literally. Going through withdrawals is the worst sickness I have ever felt and I don't know if I can handle it again. I don't have money to go to rehab, so I don't know what my next step should be. I feel like I am drowning fast. I need help!

  32. Addict

    I sympathize with all of you. I have a loved one who is dead due to an addiction to pain killers. I also have a few friends that have lost their wives due to this addiction.

    It's unfortunate that our loved ones don't understand the actual long term effects and risks that these pills are producing. It slows the heart rate down so the heart has to work twice as fast and gets weaker as time goes by. Your liver is the central zone of all that you ingest. People need to realize that death can be one of the risks to any drug addiction if they continue. I have a loved one now that's headed in the same direction. Thanks for listening and I hope to help someone with my words if possible.

  33. Addict

    I am an addict. I have been struggling with this addiction for years now. I lost my daughter in the process. She's 7 years old right now and her father divorced me when she was 2. For longer than I care to admit Hydrocodone (Loratab-Loracet) & Soma were my reason for living.

    I never thought past now except for the times I didn't have any pills. Somehow-someway, I ran into the love of my life! Because of his love, help, patience, and tolerance I have gotten on Suboxone. I am looking forward to spending my life with him. He is my rock and he has taught me to like myself as well as love myself. I'm so grateful that he didn't give up on me.

  34. Addict

    I can relate to all of you. I've been doing drugs since I was 12 years old. I have switched and substituted but have never completely stopped. Not even with the help of NA/AA.

    My mother was an addict and is still an alcoholic. I wish you all well. I was however able to kick heroin and alcohol. I just asked GOD to take my obsession for those things away. I was shocked that it worked, but only for a little while.

    I don't do Heroin and alcohol anymore but now I take a lot of pills and at age 31 have started to smoke crack.
    I'm so sick of myself. My husband has no idea how bad it is. I always feel so guilty because I have love and a great life. Why do I continue to abuse myself? I hope one day to be clean and sober and I wish you all the same!

  35. Addict

    I'm 33 years old and I'm an addict. I work in the health care industry which makes it even worse. Most of my friends are doctors and practitioners. If I ask for a script they give it to me without asking any questions.

    I started taking Lortab after a surgery 4 years ago. I had never had to take pain killers before then. A few months later, I had to have yet another surgery and this time I was given Percocet for pain. After that surgery I have had legitimate pain issues now and again. Most of the time, I take the pills just to take them. I feel depressed or distanced from my husband and children when I'm not on something.

    My husband and I have a great relationship, he is my best friend. I hide my addiction from him because I'm ashamed of myself and I'm afraid of how he might react if he found out I was hiding it from him. Just to make sure I have enough pills in case I run out, I have places I will hide one or two around the house for emergencies.

    As far as everyone is concerned, I'm in chronic pain and only admit to taking them when I need them. This is not true. I have had withdrawal symptoms before and it is agony!!! I am too ashamed to ask for help.

    Sometimes I feel like I can do this myself and work my way off of it. I'm a very strong woman, but I believe I have found my weakness. I just don't know what to do. I cant remember what it feels like to not have to take a pain pill. I hide it well and no one but me knows how bad it is except me. I just pray that I can break this terrible habit before I really do some damage.

  36. Addict

    Thank you for the information, my husband is so badly addicted to pain killers and I try to talk to him about it. He says there is nothing wrong and he will stop, but has not even made an effort to. He doesn't see the change in himself but I do and it's destroying my heart. I don't want to live this life anymore.

  37. Addict

    As I write this message, I am fighting my pill habit for about two years now. I have been trying to stop for the past four days and it has been hell.

    When I thought the worst was over, I just went out and relapsed just so I could go to work all day. It helped me get through the day.

    I don't have the option to stop working and go somewhere for help, and I need help!

  38. Addict

    I tried to read all of these posts and may have missed it, but do a search on the internet for "Here to Help". They'll give you a list of doctors that can subscribe Suboxone, an excellent drug that will stop your withdrawal pains after the FIRST DOSE.

    I am an addict, taking 40 Ultrams a day until I got an appointment with a doc on the Here to Help website. It will cost about $150/mo and the medicine about $60/mo. DO NOT fool yourself by saying you can't afford these monthly charges, you spend way more than that on your addiction per month. It is a cop out I used myself until I realized I was saving $400/mo getting the cure. People will tell you that you are trading 1 addiction for another. Do not succumb to this talk because you will take Suboxone for 6 months to a year and then it will be over.

    Trust me, your withdrawal,anxiety,silly/stupid addictive behavior WILL DISAPPEAR the day you start taking Suboxone. Another great thing about the drug is that you cannot take your pain killers/illegal drugs while taking it because it will cause heightened withdrawal pains! How cool is that? Go to the Here to Help info on the internet and start today. I am a 15 year addict living well today because of Suboxone, and saving money!!! rp

  39. Addict

    If I know of a person who abusing her proscription drugs, and trading some of her's with other, who would I report it to? I have asked here to stop. But she feels she knows what she is doing. I know her Doc., but do I dare get involved? Once her Doc. confronts her on it, she is going to know it was me who reported her. What can I do?

    • Addict

      Dave,
      This person is very fortunate to have a friend like you who cares. Abusing prescriptions drugs is serious as well as dangerous. Trading drugs and mixing them can be extremely serious and deadly. Your friend definitely needs help and guidance. Before going to her doctor, you need to talk to someone that has experience and good training in this field. They will give you professional advice and let you know how this should be handled without hurting your relationship with your friend. This call is free 24 hours a day. A good friend like you is hard to come by, please make this call for your sake and hers. 1-800-559-9503

  40. Addict

    ( Oxycontin ) Never take this drug! I have multiple friends and family members that have been addicted for years and have even died! I can name over 30 people right away! This is a horrible drug and it is ruining many lives!
    I am only 18 years old and I have been addicted for almost 2 years. I have been clean for only a week but I will NEVER look back! This needs to be taken off the market! One time is honestly too many! I was hooked the first time I tried it! I know too many people that have had everything taken away from them because of this drug! And there are too many shady doctors that will just give it away to anyone just to get some money! It is absolutely ridiculous!
    I hate that it has come to this, but it needs to be gone!! Please never experiment with something so powerful, something so evil! Your life is precious, take care of it!!!

    Samantha

  41. Addict

    just wanted to let the people out there know i am a addict i became addicted to oxys after being prescribed them it ruined my life i lost my kids my home everything that mattered but it also opened my eyes i went into rehab in Feb. 2010 and its the best thing I've ever done I've been clean almost 2 years i will always be an addict but i now know i can live without it its been almost 2 years and I'm still picking up the pieces of my life i have my children back and the material things will come later but god bless you all i will be praying for all of you that are suffering and it does get greater later.

  42. Addict

    My dad is so badly addicted to pain killers and I try to talk to him about it. He says there is nothing wrong and he will stop, but has not even made an effort to. He doesn't see the change in himself.

  43. Addict

    I am 53 years old, have been addicted to painkillers, speed for 30+ years. I recently got on Suboxone. It is a life saver, for sure. But, my heartache is still there. I was in the medical field for over 22 years, lost 4 jobs because I started calling in meds for myself. I got caught the first time, and the 2nd, but I turned myself in the next 2 times. I just could not live with myself doing that and trying to face the doctor and my co-workers every day, knowing what a hypocritical liar I was. Now, I am jobless, probably going to lose my house, car, etc. My family is just too good for me. They are standing by me, as they always do. They have faith that this one last time, I can get through this and hopefully, never look back. I hope so too. I have been sober since Aug. 10, 2012. God bless everybody out there.

  44. Addict

    My daughter married has a son I was under aware Dr. gave her pain meds when I had children I don't recall asking if I need pain meds and a year and half later has another son during this most of this pregnancy Dr. prescribes pain med s she lives in one town I'm in another now the baby is 2 and I now know this so called husband is no good he is taking pain killers and has before they were married and he is currently incarcerated and she is here in my home how or what can do to get her help this is way out of hand I talk to her and of course she doesn't see this as a big problem and once she out of bed by 1 or so has like 5 pain pill maybe within a hour 1 or 2 more and repeats this all day and I mean she's not swallowing the pills she's snorting them this is so painful for me to see my baby girl this way by now she calm enough to talk to she says she wont to get off pain pills but won't how can I get her the help she needs.

  45. Addict

    I AM A WIFE WHOSE HUSBAND HAS BEEN ADDICTED TO PAIN KILLERS FOR ABOUT 4 YEARS HE HAS BEEN OFF OF THEM FOR ABOUT 5 DAYS AND I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HELP HIM I SEE HIM GOING THREW THE WITHDRAWALS AND THE PURE HELL HES GOING THREW AND I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO HELP HIM OR WHAT TO EVEN SAY TO HIM MOST OF THE TIME SOMEBODY PLEASE I NEED ADVICE.

  46. Addict

    Well there's two that helps Saboxin and Clonidine for withdrawal you got to get it from your doctor.

  47. Addict

    My husband is abusing Vicodin. It has gotten so bad that he hides them from me and spends most of his paycheck every week on them. He has started to work extra hours and side jobs just to be able to get his next pill. I love him very much but I cannot live this way much longer. I have a problem with struggling to put food on the table and provide for our children because of this. And want to help him but I don't know how. His attitude is very argumentative when he doesn't have them and then he gets extremely ill. He has a skin disease which affects his immune system and the meds he is on for that is very harsh on his liver plus he drinks every day. I don't know what to do!?!?

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      I too have an addiction and now I'm 20 days clean. No matter how bad you want him to stop it's really up to him. My doc put me on Clonidine and it was the best choice I ever made. I have good days and bad days but I'm much happier knowing I did this for me and my family. His attitude is from the pills, maybe give him an ultimatum and then he will come around.

  48. Addict

    My sister, age 65, has lived in a drug induced stupor for 40+ years, pain pills, anti-psychotic drugs......and abuse of laxatives. It is amazing what the human body can tolerate and still survive. She once went through withdrawal at home alone (because she moved and could not transfer her rx). She said it almost killed her, but then got back on drugs. As far as I know she has never stolen, but can really tell some whoppers to try to get money out of relatives. If they do not give her money, she calls them every name known to man, and makes up a few lies along the way. I guess when you are an addict, pride goes out the window. Taking drugs is a choice, not something that is thrust upon you.

  49. Addict

    My name is Melissa I'll be 29 in may I have 4 beautiful .babies 4 boys that are 10 and 5 and 2 girls that are 8 and 6. I love them with all my heart they are.my live but I've been addicted to meth for almost 11 yrs. now and when I get tired of fighting it seems I'm hardly making any progress at all. I fall back into the slump sometimes a little further than I was the. First time but I refuse to let it win but here is my issue I really believe for me to fight it head on and win 100% committed to it I need to go to a long term rehab not in my surrounding counties. Just way to close for comfort and the problem I have no money I'm broke no health insurance nothing please somebody help me I'm begging how do I get the help I desperately need?

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